I always knew the road would be the thing that took my father away someday. But I never thought it would happen on his birthday, and just half a mile from the motorcycle shop he had owned for almost thirty years.
The police told me a teenage driver, distracted by texting, drifted over the center line. My dad’s old Indian Chief motorcycle didn’t have time to avoid the crash. After seventy-two years of life—forty-nine of those spent riding motorcycles—Ray Harmon died because some kid couldn’t wait to send a silly emoji.
When I got to the hospital, they told me he was already gone. I was dressed in my best suit and Italian shoes, still holding the briefcase from a client meeting I had rushed out of. I felt like a stranger in my own skin. The nurse even thought I was my dad’s lawyer, not his son. I couldn’t blame her. We hadn’t looked alike in years.
That night, I sat alone in his cluttered house. Everywhere I looked were signs of a life I had spent years trying to forget—motorcycle parts on the dining table, tool catalogs piled near his recliner, and the faint smell of motor oil that no amount of cleaning could remove.
In the quiet, I found myself opening his leather riding jacket, still hanging by the door where he had left it that morning. The collar was worn smooth from years of use. When I pressed it to my face, I could still smell his aftershave.
Inside the jacket’s pocket, I found a journal. It was battered, stained with oil, and held together with electrical tape. I knew I shouldn’t read it, but I did anyway. Maybe I was looking for the father I had left behind when I left our small town for the city. Maybe I was searching for forgiveness.
What I found inside broke everything I thought I knew about him—and about us. My hands trembled as I turned the last page. Tears blurred the faded ink where he had written my name over and over.
The first entry was dated June 17, 1983. I was only eight years old.
Michael rode his bike today without training wheels. He wobbled badly at first but then took off down the street like he was born to ride. Martha says he gets his balance from me. Maybe she’s right. The boy’s a natural on wheels. He fell and scraped his knee bad but didn’t cry. Just got up and tried again. Proud doesn’t begin to cover what I felt watching him. Some men get their names on buildings. I’d rather have a son with that kind of courage.
I remembered that day clearly—Dad running beside me, his rough hand steady on my bike seat. The fear and joy when I realized he’d let go. But I didn’t remember him being proud.
I kept reading, flipping through pages filled with his plain handwriting. Birthdays, school events, the fishing trip when I caught my first bass. Little moments I had forgotten, saved in a journal smelling like grease and cheap coffee.
Then I came to October 12, 1993—my senior year of high school.
Michael got his college acceptance letter today. Full scholarship to Northwestern. Martha would have been proud if she were alive to see it. He didn’t say much when he showed me, just stood in the kitchen like waiting for me to tell him no. As if I would clip his wings. When did my son start thinking I was a cage instead of a safety net?
I closed the journal with blurry eyes. I had been so focused on escaping my father’s world that I never thought he wanted that escape for me too.
The next morning, I called my work and arranged a two-week leave for a family emergency. I began sorting through Dad’s things, expecting unpaid bills and old papers.
But instead, I found stacks of receipts. Dozens of them, from a place called Willow Creek Residential Care. The last payment was just last week.
I’d never heard of Willow Creek. Dad never mentioned anyone in a care home. Mom died when I was twelve, and all his siblings were gone too. So who was he paying? And why hide it?
Willow Creek was three hours north, in the woods. I could have rented a car, but I went to Dad’s garage instead. His Indian Chief was still there, damaged but fixable. Next to it, under a tarp, was another bike—his pride and joy, a 1947 Harley-Davidson Knucklehead. I helped him rebuild it when I was sixteen. The last time we connected.
“This bike has a soul, Mikey,” he told me once, grease on his hands. “Treat her right, and she’ll always bring you home.”
I hadn’t ridden in twenty years—swore it off after seeing a friend get paralyzed. But now, I pulled the cover off, touched the gas tank, and something inside stirred.
The keys hung on the wall where they always did. The leather saddlebags were still there, worn but sturdy. Inside one, I found an old road map with a route marked to Willow Creek, with notes on roads and sights.
Dad had planned this trip, maybe many times, but never took it.
I put on his jacket, too big but close enough, and started the Knucklehead. The engine roared after a few tries, the sound I grew up with.
My hands knew what to do. Clutch, shift, throttle. The bike rolled smoothly. At the street’s end, I paused, then turned north.
Toward Willow Creek. Toward answers.
The ride was like waking from a dream. In my car, the world is behind glass. On the bike, I was in the world—smelling fresh hay, feeling cool forest air, tasting pine sap.
The miles passed, and with them, my grief loosened. I remembered more than fights with Dad—the fishing, changing tires, sitting quietly when I was scared.
At a gas station, I read more in the journal, looking for clues about Willow Creek. I found an entry from my college graduation.
Michael walked the stage today, summa cum laude. Had to ask what that meant. “With highest honor,” they said. That fits him.
Dad was proud, but I was distant then. Martha’s touch with words was missing. I told him I was proud and left before he could see me flinch.
I stopped at Willow Creek on my way home. A woman named Alice greeted me. She cried seeing my picture and said I had my mother’s eyes.
Alice was my father’s secret wife, the woman he cared for all those years. She had Alzheimer’s and didn’t always know who I was.
I stayed, learning about their life together, his love, and sacrifice.
I brought her home, where she could live her last days surrounded by memories.
Some secrets I never expected, some love I never knew.
I discovered who my father really was.